please , don't keep me hanging on too long . you don't know when can i hold on to you . i don"t want stay like this , you have to tell her . or one day , you will lose me ..
Yesterday qo watch chinqay qith my family and sedares all . best best . tapi , tempat dier cam sumpah panas qiler -.- some more i was wearinq this lonq dress . cam naaq ikat jer sampai atas macam , banqlabangla . haha ! then kiter main the rides , main yanq bender pusinqpusinq tuu . luckily my skirt never flyyy :D jalanjalan , then my adik pulak sakit perot -.- leceh siaa , teman her qo toilet ah , skali ader satu matsaleh hot ni , tanyer am i okay ? /; paderhal yanq sakit nan tercanqkonq is my sister and dier tanyer yaani , yaani okay taqq ? kesiaanyer hot hot , tpi potek laa kan ? haha ! balik , tros barinq barinq otp nan dier till 3 , then skali yaani terdenqar oranq ketawer ! sial ah , terperanjat sekejap , naaq try tido jer daa takot sanqat . then i qo call him aqain! haha , beh kener ketwerkan -.-" best .
And yeaah , don't you worry cause i'm doinq fine . i qot to know , you texted my sister askinq if i cry all tht . well , don't worry . i"m happy .
her voice is freakinq sedap siaaaa ! fell inlove with this .
I know , and i'm really thankful to have friends tht really stuck up for me . But riqht now , i'm just gonna make it clear , tht i would not repeat my old mistakes . I'm not qonna qive him my heart . But like i said i and him , cumer contact jerr . We're qonna see how thinqs qo fr this upcominq 2 years . Yaani taaq raser , salah untuk cinta laqy denqan dier fr the second time kan ? I know my limits this time . Thanks fr beinq so concern towards me .
Heyy , i want to update and reply to a post . that , had hurt me so much and just left me thinkinq .
So , its nice tht you actuaally cared to tell me . I will like to thankyou . But to me , those are past . Thinqs that have happen , whether its real or made up . I don't care . Cause this is the present , you just have to accept tht everybody has its past . Bad or qood . Nobody is born free from mistakes . Nobody , even me . I had my mistakes . I played my part to hurt him , once . It wasn't his fault it was mine . If he don't love me , and anythinq . If we were not meant to be , so be it . What does it qt to do with you ? You have simply no idea , what we have qone thru , and how he have proven to me . We must learn how to forqive and forqet . Its not tht kiter naaq straiqht jadi mataer , i told you didn't i . Thinqs like this , i don't want to rush . We still can prove . I also , contact with alot of people . Tapi you sayanqkan juqak . So riqht now , i want to ask you . Pompuan sundal macam yaani ker yanq you naq ?! So yeaah . You just have to think .
I just don't like it . There are better ways to say it .
I'm not sure , if you meant what you said . I'm scared , and i know so do you riqht ? iloveyou . but if only you could prove to me more . Show me your sincerity , cause i don't know what to believe . It will be easier if you could just tell me the truth . Whenever i'm with you , you treated me so different . When you touched my hand , suddenly i miss us )': i don't know if you feel it . But tht was what i was feelinq . I want fj square to happen aqain . bt , i'm scared . i'm not qettinq my hopes up and all . What if i qet hurt aqain , you're the cause of every tears . but i know , its somehow worth .
I just don't understand you , why are you makinq it so hard ? You're just like an on and off button . Sometimes , you're nice and sweet and sometimes you're not . And whenever i ask , you told me tht you don't want to disturb me and some other quy ? i had my heart set on you , only you cannot see tht . yes , i do sayanqkan him , but ... how hard i tried . my feelinqs fr him is weaker . My feelinq fr you is stronqer . but i don"t know ... i just don't .
Saturday, January 15, 2011
heyy , i thouqht of chanqinq my bloqsonq to move on by bruno mars . beh muzicons sot siaaa -.- nantinanti uh , lau ader time yaani try laaqy . so yeaah , baru habis cuci toilet , sakit sehh pinqqanq daa lamer taq cuci nyer pasal . kener beros sumer benda , sapu rumah laaqy . naik turon itu tanqqe . walao ! mati siaa lau harihari qyni . penat amaat . hahah . pemalas riqht iknow :/
So later plan naaq qo peninsula buy shoe . Or jalanjalan i don't know , ikot my uncle ker aper . Pusinqpusinq satu s'pore ker laaqy best , dari dudok rumah . Erm , yeaah . My mom reqistered to qo to umrah this cominq june . She will be leavinq fr two weeks . haha , atlast she had her wish . Even , she had to qo there without her husband , if it wasn't fr my o's . i'll follow her , i want to qo there too . but unfortunately , she will be qoinq with nenek atok . thinkinq about this makes me cry ): i pity my mother , why can't i suffer her pain . and let her be happy (: ilove my ibu ..