i hate tht i love you

i have loved you , i still continue . but , i don't know if what i'm feeling now is worthy . Cause i'm starting to feel like it doesn't . This feeling tht i had fr him , after we break cause me nothing but tears . Holding my heart pain and all . fuck hurt . but , does he care ? hmm , i'll be dreaming if he does . cause whatever i do now , whatever i say now , will never appeal to him . cause i meant nothing . even if he say he love me still , those are just words . saying i love you , are easy . a bunch of words . but proving it , hmm . now that is difficult .