i want to change

Even if situations are getting better , i can really see in his eyes that he is still extremely hurt inside )': I feel so guilty so useless .. even his heart aches , he is still want to make me happy when we meet .. keep me smiling , even if he hurts )': every thing tht he do make me feel how much he loves me )': i understand why , he controls me , why he get jealous easily over small things , its because he wants to own me alone , no third parties )'; how can he be so nice to me , when i keep breaking his heart .. he made me realise something , i know there is no other guy tht will be able to tolerate wif my attitude like he do ... )': eventho how much i messed up , he still wanna be there for me .. and loves me , for who i am ... I regretted evtg tht i did , i want to be the girl of his dreams ,the girl tht truly deserve his love , the person tht he trust the most ... i want to change for him )': i hate , myself fer treating him this way ... i want to change ...