i felt so alone

I'm jus sick and tired when people kept approching me , and say how disturbed i look .

What shud i do to make me look normal ? Must i smile 24 hours like one mad woman , to show tht i'm not trouble ? What ? Why , can't i choose on what type of character i wish to show ? Why must people question on , things tht i have decided . This is ME ! NUR FITHRIYAANI BTE JUMARI ! and i'm 15 years old . Why , must i be treated like a 10 ? its not fair fer me . I wann make decisions tht i think its good . Decisons fer me . not fer anybody else . Is it wrong ? They hold me , until i dun feel any air to breathe . questioning evtg i do . i decide . why ? Do evtg i do is wrong ? Am i such a bad person ?D; tis things make me feel neglected . people , dun wann to care what i feel . They just decide evtg on my life , and treat like its theirs ? hello eurs is over ! wayyyyyyy over . its my turn . If i make a mistake , let me learn something frm it . So why ? i wann to make decisions fer myself , of course iwud need opinion , frm the more experienced . But just opinions and not decisions ! I feel so neglected , can't eu feel how unfair this wud make me feel ): you gt a taste of being a teeneager , it;s up and down , now let me taste mine . Is tht so much to ask ?? i guess its too much . Now , he is not here . When i cry there won't be anybody wiping my tears away .. i felt so alone D:

And to the lovelies hum lepak at my house just now , thx fer the fun . appreciate tons orite (: ^^ lovee you people . Sikit sikit help me smile abit (: thx korg , gantikkan tempat firdaus bler dier taqder (: