unfair ):

This is just depressing ! i cant hold on to my life .

Everything is just goin , past me so fast before i could hold on to it ):

All , this isn't what , i thot my life wud turn out to be ):

To me , all this is just unfair . Seriously , unfair );

I'm onli 14 , and i had to deal with truck loads of problems ): i'm not strong , to oversome all this on my own ): i donno whether to cry nor scream , im just not getting a hang of it ): i just need a break ! i want a break , frm all this misery .. but i jus donno how): things ard me are just falling apart , i cant grab hold on to it any longer . it hurts . realie . Im tired of trying to pick but everything together , but soon it will fall out again . everything , i tried seems fruitless . They , just wudnt understand what , i had been trying to do ): Do , they ever think of what i felt ? Im under , massive stress , and eur just out there having fun ? Do eu ever thing what it will make me feel ? what the other might feel ? if onli , god cud hear my prayers ... ): i want this to end . i wanna lead a happy life with all my lurve ones ): is tht so hard fer a 14 year old girl wished fer . i just want all this to stop . STOP !

{ To Boyf tersayang }

I noe , i buat perangai nowadaes . i show attitude to eu ): Eur , just putting up all the attitude i showed to eu ... im sorry ): i just cant hold on .. things are much much more difficult . I tried to fake a smile ard eu . I realie , don wan eu to b sad just because of this ): i realie do . Somehow , i just cant hold up the tears ard eu animore . It just kept coming up . im sorry , if eu had to see me cry . Tq , fer being a good shoulder to cry on . Tq , fer always being there fer me ): when things are just ____ . im sorry , fer the immature attitude i gave eu ): i know , eu felt realie hurt . but , it will stop . i promise you . I noe , i said this millions of times , but eventually i'll repeat it again and again ): im realie sorry . i do not have any itentions to hurt eu . but somehow i just did ): im sorry ): truly am sorry ): ily .