miss them all !

Currently staring into the blank screen not knowing what to write . I decided to cancel my trip to my grandma house at Paris . I guess , i am not that ready to face her just yet . haisz , in my lyfe , there is always never a tyme when im free from trouble. There is always its up's and down's , i sometymes feel that this worls doesnt seem friendly to me .. but i know i have to live up lyfe to the fullest for those whom neeeded me . But .. in my condition lyke this , i cant help it , thinking that iam putting a very big fat burden to my family ... ): if only , i could make a choice .. but too bad .. everything is happening so fast .. haisz ..

Now , not knowing what else to do , suddenly i miss him ... it have been 5 months , since he left me , but i still find it hard to forget about hom.. not knowing the reason why , he is just a stain that i am still trying to erase . All this while , waiting for him ,is like waiting for something that will never be coming back . I decided to not talk bout him , but how !? why cant i just forget about him and just move on ! why am i so stubborn headed ! i must be srong and accept the fact ,that he is in love with some other girl ..hmm .. Do eu guys ever felt that , eu felt hard for someone , knowing that the person doesnt love eu back , and knowing that the person loves somebody else , and thought that , the both of them are perfect for each other .. and eu dont want to get in their way , thinking that they should be happy , and eu suddenly have to accept the fact that he is gone and wont be returning back to eu , and suddenly eu have to back off , and the only thing eu could do is watch them going off happily and wish them happy always and last long .. haisz , that is what om feeling right now . Friends told eu , to move on ! i told myself o move on ! but how ?????????????????????????????? ): ): i used to think he is perfect for me , but know iam not feeling so sure ... ): i guess , its just tyme , to let him go , and let him chhose with whomever he loves to be with ..

klarh ,dats all

sayang eu all

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