don't keep me hanging

please , don't keep me hanging on too long . you don't know when can i hold on to you . i don"t want stay like this , you have to tell her . or one day , you will lose me ..

be gentle

My skin is like a map, of where my heart has been

And I can't hide the marks, but it's not a negative thing

So I let down my guard, drop my defenses, down by my clothes

I'm learning to fall, with no safety net, to cushion the blow

I bruise easily, so be gentle when you handle me

There's a mark you leave, like a love heart carved on a tree

I bruise easily, can't scratch the surface without moving me

Underneath

I bruise easily, I bruise easily

I've found your fingerprints on a glass of wine

Do you know you're leaving them all over this heart of mine, too

But if I never take this leap of faith, I'll never know

So I'm learning to fall with no safety net to cushion the blow

I bruise easily, so be gentle when you handle me

There's a mark you leave, like a love heart carved on a tree

I bruise easily, can't scratch the surface without moving me

Underneath

I bruise easily, I bruise easily

Anyone who

Can touch you

Can hurt you

Or heal you.

Anyone who

Can reach you

Can love you

Or leave you...

So be gentle

So be gentle

So be gentle

So be gentle

I bruise easily, so be gentle when you handle me

There's a mark you leave, like a love heart carved on a tree

I bruise easily, can't scratch the surface without moving me

Underneath

I bruise easily,

I bruise easily, so be gentle when you handle me

There's a mark you leave, like a love heart carved on a tree

I bruise easily, can't scratch the surface without moving me

Underneath

I bruise easily, I bruise easily

I bruise easily

I bruise easily

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Omq !~ dier sunqquh hot please ! haha .

So yeaah , lonq time no update . LAAAAAZY !

Yesterday qo watch chinqay qith my family and sedares all . best best . tapi , tempat dier cam sumpah panas qiler -.- some more i was wearinq this lonq dress . cam naaq ikat jer sampai atas macam , banqlabangla . haha ! then kiter main the rides , main yanq bender pusinqpusinq tuu . luckily my skirt never flyyy :D jalanjalan , then my adik pulak sakit perot -.- leceh siaa , teman her qo toilet ah , skali ader satu matsaleh hot ni , tanyer am i okay ? /; paderhal yanq sakit nan tercanqkonq is my sister and dier tanyer yaani , yaani okay taqq ? kesiaanyer hot hot , tpi potek laa kan ? haha ! balik , tros barinq barinq otp nan dier till 3 , then skali yaani terdenqar oranq ketawer ! sial ah , terperanjat sekejap , naaq try tido jer daa takot sanqat . then i qo call him aqain! haha , beh kener ketwerkan -.-" best .

And yeaah , don't you worry cause i'm doinq fine . i qot to know , you texted my sister askinq if i cry all tht . well , don't worry . i"m happy .

her voice is freakinq sedap siaaaa ! fell inlove with this .

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I know , and i'm really thankful to have friends tht really stuck up for me . But riqht now , i'm just gonna make it clear , tht i would not repeat my old mistakes . I'm not qonna qive him my heart . But like i said i and him , cumer contact jerr . We're qonna see how thinqs qo fr this upcominq 2 years . Yaani taaq raser , salah untuk cinta laqy denqan dier fr the second time kan ? I know my limits this time . Thanks fr beinq so concern towards me .

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haha , yes he is .

Heyy , i want to update and reply to a post . that , had hurt me so much and just left me thinkinq .

So , its nice tht you actuaally cared to tell me . I will like to thankyou . But to me , those are past . Thinqs that have happen , whether its real or made up . I don't care . Cause this is the present , you just have to accept tht everybody has its past . Bad or qood . Nobody is born free from mistakes . Nobody , even me . I had my mistakes . I played my part to hurt him , once . It wasn't his fault it was mine . If he don't love me , and anythinq . If we were not meant to be , so be it . What does it qt to do with you ? You have simply no idea , what we have qone thru , and how he have proven to me . We must learn how to forqive and forqet . Its not tht kiter naaq straiqht jadi mataer , i told you didn't i . Thinqs like this , i don't want to rush . We still can prove . I also , contact with alot of people . Tapi you sayanqkan juqak . So riqht now , i want to ask you . Pompuan sundal macam yaani ker yanq you naq ?! So yeaah . You just have to think .

I just don't like it . There are better ways to say it .

it seems so hard

i want it to repeat )':

I'm not sure , if you meant what you said . I'm scared , and i know so do you riqht ? iloveyou . but if only you could prove to me more . Show me your sincerity , cause i don't know what to believe . It will be easier if you could just tell me the truth . Whenever i'm with you , you treated me so different . When you touched my hand , suddenly i miss us )': i don't know if you feel it . But tht was what i was feelinq . I want fj square to happen aqain . bt , i'm scared . i'm not qettinq my hopes up and all . What if i qet hurt aqain , you're the cause of every tears . but i know , its somehow worth .

I just don't understand you , why are you makinq it so hard ? You're just like an on and off button . Sometimes , you're nice and sweet and sometimes you're not . And whenever i ask , you told me tht you don't want to disturb me and some other quy ? i had my heart set on you , only you cannot see tht . yes , i do sayanqkan him , but ... how hard i tried . my feelinqs fr him is weaker . My feelinq fr you is stronqer . but i don"t know ... i just don't .

heyy , i thouqht of chanqinq my bloqsonq to move on by bruno mars . beh muzicons sot siaaa -.- nantinanti uh , lau ader time yaani try laaqy . so yeaah , baru habis cuci toilet , sakit sehh pinqqanq daa lamer taq cuci nyer pasal . kener beros sumer benda , sapu rumah laaqy . naik turon itu tanqqe . walao ! mati siaa lau harihari qyni . penat amaat . hahah . pemalas riqht iknow :/

So later plan naaq qo peninsula buy shoe . Or jalanjalan i don't know , ikot my uncle ker aper . Pusinqpusinq satu s'pore ker laaqy best , dari dudok rumah . Erm , yeaah . My mom reqistered to qo to umrah this cominq june . She will be leavinq fr two weeks . haha , atlast she had her wish . Even , she had to qo there without her husband , if it wasn't fr my o's . i'll follow her , i want to qo there too . but unfortunately , she will be qoinq with nenek atok . thinkinq about this makes me cry ): i pity my mother , why can't i suffer her pain . and let her be happy (: ilove my ibu ..

 hey like so lonq never update riqht ? haha ! Look , at my eyebaqs . Like so biq riqht ! i'm still very tired , after tht 3 days 2 niqhts camp . taaq cukup tido siaa . macam accident berlaku , scary experiences ! haha ; malam jumaat , jalan bahtera somemore wht do you expect laa kan !  short post laaa k ? when laptop daah repair , i update lonqer ! alriqht qoodniqht world (;           

A new Yaani

Hey ! haha , sorry fr beinq so pedihpedih on my last few posts . Ish , borinq laa naaq macam qyni jerr , 2011 kaan naq dekat ? So kener ader new motive in life , concentrate on o levels , and smileee :D Boleh taaq ? Mesti boleh laa kan ?

So yeaah , i don't know why i seem so hyper today . I quess , because my lips don't hurt anymore , pasal this few days naaq smile sakitlaaa . haha ! ish , yaani taaqmo bilanq oranq ni secret ^^ Nanti meetinq , my primary school friends . Yana , huda , deena , Afiq , haziq . Go play layanqlayanq , macam picnic laaa qytu , but i have to meet yana first qo accompany her qo buy book .

I quess , whatever happens now , its just what i decide on . It may be a mistake , i may turn out to be somethinq qood . Human beinqs learn from makinq decisions . And , every heartbreak leads us closer to happy endinqs riqht ? So yeaah , yaani why must qive up hope ? Dier bukan soranq jerrkan dalam dunie ni ? I can find others , that is worth thinkinq about . I don't need to be toyed . I think , now i qotta value my eqo more ! haha ! Be stronq , cause i know . Nothinq last forever , everythinq come and qo and it depends on whether you're willinq to let qo or not . So now , i'm beqinniq to let qo , thinqs tht are not mine . Why bother holdinq on ? buat sakitkhati jerr btol taaq ? So yeaa . A new Nur Fithriyaani Bte Jumari , fr 2011 ^^

Shasha Rose

Heyy , tht will be Shasha Rose . I sumpah i sayanq her alot . We have been facinq hard times , but we both know tht we have each others back )': i know i can't rely on anyone else to cheer me up , they can only cause us pain , then run away . This are all criminals at heart . When i went to her house just now , her mother was like askinq am i okay ? Cause she say she heard me cryinq on the phone . So yeaah , my eyes was teary , cause tht time was when i felt somene actually care enuff to ask me ): When i was in Shasha's room , i just can't hold on . That i poured everythinq to her . And a huq was all i need .

Even how upside down my world's qonna be , i have to do somethinq about it . I have to stay stronq fr myself , not fr my family , him or anybody else . Cause , they can never understand , what i feel . Even if i don't qet appreciated , well . Everythinq must be sincere , we can't expect anythinq back riqht ? So what if i'm sad ? So what if i'm hurt alonq the way , let me qet this straiqht . I'm immune to it all . I just keep breakinq , so what is the point on holdinq everythinq up riqht ? I may feel lonely , but i think all this are part of life . We can't do anythinq to chanqe . So yeaaah . May 2011 , be a different year . Please , 2011 i want to be happy . That is all i ever wanted .

Dear new girlf ,

Why ? Girls would want to chase , someone who hurts them so much , and iqnore on those who really love them ? Macam qirls , really love qettinq hurt by boys . She like sanqqop put aside all the hurtinqs just because of love ? Are all qirls like tht well i don't know .

Dear New Girlf ,

I hope , you will take care of him , and do a better job than me . He really loves , when you're always there fr him , when he is in trouble . Don't always cry on the phone , cause tht will make him sad . And he doesn't like it . Don"t lie to him , always tell him the truth . Don't cheat on him , show to him tht he is the only one you love . And i'm sure he will to (: cause tht is somethinq he never lacks in showinq . Randomly just text him , and tell him what he means to you , he really do . When he is mad or anqry , try to make him lauqh . Give him space , fr his life . Cause you can't expect him to be with you always , he hates beinq restricted . Don't qet anqry if he smokes , he will stop whenever he feels like it . Don't force him . Grab his hands , when you are walkinq with him , make him lauqh , do crazy and stupid stuffs around him . Don't force him , to tell you his problems , but just be there and comfort him . He really loves sinqinq on the phone , and playinq quitar . Even , if you don't like the qenre of music just listen to him . He can sinq sonq like a lullaby to you every niqht . Appreciate him . everythinq tht he do fr you . Thank him , tht will make hin feel appreciated . Well new qirlf , i hope you quys last lonq .

His past girlf .

I was just surfinq youtube , when i found this ! haha . Best aaaah , i like this version better than Nelly's .

I need a break from everythinq like seriously . My heart , is just stumblinq around not knowinq what to do . And , my brain just won't help me . I had enough , i wasn't beinq yaani for the past 5 months . I turned , to a hideous player . Goinq around , and beinq so hurt and lonely , i took it out on other people )': i'm beinq a bitch . But , after thinkinq and reflectinq on everythinq , all this doesn't make me feel happy , my heart doesn't seem to be at ease . Instead , i'm creatinq more hurt in it . All this , need to come to an end . I know , whom i love . I know , whom i want to be with . I know whom , i'll wait for . So , there should not be anyone , cominq in between till i'm really ready , to let qo . Anyway , there is no use rushinq thru this thinqs . I want to be someone , tht doesn't need a boy by her side , to keep her smilinq . I don't need tht . I won't be dependinq on anyone but myself . Whatever , is qoinq to happen , i leave it to qod . He knows best laa riqht ?

I'm sorry , wan . I can't do this anymore , i can't brinq myself to lie to anybody . I memanq sayanqkan you . No doubts tht i do , but my heart . I tried to love you , qive my whole heart to . But , i don't know , why i can't do tht . I really love beinq around you . You just make me lauqh and smile , with all your stupid jokes . But , i think now . I just need time . I don't want to continue doinq all this . I'm sorry , tht i hurt you . I know , you are really keen , to make me move on . I tried to , but i just can't . Not yet . I hope you don't mind , if we were to be friends , fr now ):

I
never used to be jealous then I liked you. Now, I’m jealous if just about
every
girl that you talk to, smile at or even wave at all because in those
seconds
when you look at her eyes, I wasn’t on your mind.

Heyy , daa balik frm Batam daa :D

I didn't have a nice time , during my holidays . I cried there alot )': I just can't bare it all . I can't bare seeing your face . i didn't mean to break your heart , my intention was only to be strong fr my mother . I want to help her , ease her pain . If i can , i'll take the pain away frm her , so it will be me who is hurting )': ibu is sick pa .. Please do something to change this family . fr her . not fr me , but fr my siblings to . You told me , you want to correct everything , but what are you correcting ? which part of this , is correct infront of your eyes ? I know i can never be good infront of your eyes . Even , i didn't say it . even if i'm rude to you . You should know tht deep down in me , you're still my father and iloveyou ):

I keep crying this few days . Keep crying myself to sleep , sampai pagi pagi mate daa kalah panda . Why isn't there any day , fr me not to cry . Faking smiles is easy . watching everyone have fun , watching someone get to see my face and smile , tht is really nice feeling . But inside ? i'm just breaking down so much . The person i love , no longer here fr me . Its time , fr me to let go . I can'thold onto you anymore , the promise we made . i don't know till when i can love you . Cause loving you just hurt me so much . i want to move on . but how ? what do you expect me to say or do when you have others in your heart to ? hearing you going out with her , wanting her to be yours . Then , what am i still doing here ? Why don't you put yourself in my shoes , if i were to treat you like this you will definitely hate me boy ... Sometime , i just think tht i'm being stupid to hold on )':

i love you with all my butt (:

i find this macam super cute ! hahah , my butt is bigger !

Alright , i kener update my blog , sebab wan mati mati suro . haha ! So here , i'm leaving fr batam tomorrow . 2 days 1 night . Macam of all places kan ? -.- i really hate going there , and i know my mom does too . Tapi , my aunt daa book tickets , so what else can we do kan ? hmm so yeah , skip the topic . I have been sick , fr the past two days , cause of the weather ah ni agaknye , have been vomitting alot also -.- haha , macam pregnant women eh ? but , NO ! i'm not . Me and wan , plan naq cut down on smoking ! haha , he cut down ? yaani sumpah taqleh percayer . So i made up this plan , tht whenever dier beli rokok ameq satu batang the rest kasi yaani simpankan . haha ! then , yaani habiskan , haha okay right ? i know right .

And , i'm currently , having problem dengan seseorang makhluk tuhan ni ! cb ! i really , don't like when people just spread ugly stuffs that is untrue about me . What have i ever done to you ? what wrong ? until i deserve all this ? People nowadays , just don't use their brains whenever they say somethings . Please eh boy , choose your words wisely ! you wait ah ! i'll confront you , infront of your friends and let them see how world you are ! stupid fcker ! i'm like so pissed when i heard all this sia ! pfft .

Yaani Delaney

Heyy ! i miss this siaaa . dibelai and loved . haha ! random eh ? yaa .

Aniway , planning to go cycling later tapi tngok ah ! its raining , punyer laa lebat . Then end up , me and shasha rose lepak lepak jer laaa . And oh yaa , i have something in mind uh this few days . k , listen here . I'm a big girl , and i believe i'm big enough to make my own choices . Whatever consequences it has . I'm the one who has to face it . I don't mind you ginving advices , but i just don't like the way you boss around with my life . You're not my parents , and you should know very well tht you have no rights over me . Ijust don't like , it . When i don't listen to you , you will give me those faces tht make me feel so guilty . I have to listen to your needs and wants . But what about me ? don't i have any rights fr my own life ? hmmm , i don't think so .

Rozita Yusof

Time check , daa pukul 3:44 am . I'm still awake . Actually , yaani daa sleep tao , but i was awaken by this wonderful dream ^^ haha . wasted siaaa . Smpi sekarang taaqleh tido .

So today , i spent the whole day with my mother (: Cause today , was suppose to be her 17 years of anniversary with my dad . But , i think he forgot ): And my mom was crying fr having to face him in the house , so i decided to ajak her out with my auntie . So kiter pn meet kat northpoint , makan icecream pt macd then when straight to arab street , go look fr somethings . then gy ilumma plan naaq go watch movie . tpi taaqder criter best pon -_________- ader pon sumer NC16 . pfft , wait ah ! next year , i come ! haha ! then ended up kiter maen maen game pt timezone , macam idiot kan ? haha ! bt i just want to cheer her up ^^ after tht , kiter go jalan pat bugis street , buy my topi ! mom say , i look different . yelaar , lau taq asyik sebok jek nan fringe . So after tht , kiter go makan pt beachroad . haha , tulang tulang ^^ . Then baleq , i'm so tired now . Want try sleep . byee

ps :

suke - s

sayang - ?

cinta - ?

pfft ! make me cannot sleep , piker pasal ni ! T.T

what hurts the most

I really love the cover of this song , it just leave me crying badly .

class bbq

My class bbq , was AWESOME ! lets put aside the fact on some people tht i don't wish to say

names ruined a quarter of tht day . So mostly what we did was swimming ! haha , from 2 plus all the way to around 6 . haha ! imagine , how dark my skin

is now . dark dark brown . like keling maner already ! haha , well no tht dark uh . kiter maen dare alot of stupid stupid ideas , only the

8 of know alright ^^ then i went cycling with adel ! haha , atfirst we failed to keep the bicycle balance uh , bt fr awhile i get a hold of it , some more i infront , takot jekk adel terjatoh , dier pulak terpekik pkeik , laagy laa yaani panic semacam haha ! then then , cycling jap with fir , stopped at the jetty fr awhile . i planned to jum frm there ! but , fir , please yaani please -_____- haha ! then continued back , dier pulak naq race nan orang putih maner taaah . yaani , maner laa boleh catch up , so i put up my leg , dier sorang ajer yang cycle ^^ clever taaq ? haha , well i know . after , tht makan makan , continue swimming laagy ! haha , sumpah fun i give tht day 7/10 uh . Lets have another outing next year alright people ! ^^ bbye ! (:

tuition outing

Sorry fr the harsh previous post . When bacer bacer baleq , i sound so haarsh laa . haha , i guess its just the way , naq lepaskan geram .

Aniway , i had a wonderful tuition outing yesterday , with irfan , keemy , ikha , rasyidah , syukri and ariani . HAHA ! so , met irfan at 11 , but i was late like fr 5 minutes . So irfan tunggu , then we both go banquet naq makan , beh irfan just cannot make up his mind kan -_______- so , kiter turon baleq all the way to MacD . then went to cold storage buy my bubble tea , then went to value dollar tu beli air fr later nyer picnic . so we just walked pt interchange meet adel , py bayar utk bq this wed . dudok nan irfan pt int smoke break jap ^^ then meet the rest pt bns . HAHAH ! rasyidah siap bawak monopoly skali ! haha . then trained all the way to marina barrage . kacau kacau irfan yang sudaah botak . "bald people are hot ! " hahah . then nae shuttle bas sumer bla bla . malas naq criterkan panjang panjang , then we went to ion orchard , jalan jalan window shopping . then kiter pon baleq . gambar gambar banyak pt facebook .

Me and aris , we stop contacting , fr good maybe ... takecare pig ):